Some days, I wish I was a writer, a novelist. A teacher. A full-time fitness professional. A dancer, a singer, or a coffee-shop owner.
Some days.
Most days I aspire to be more. To cross the finish lines of the many projects and ventures I've started. The goals I've set out to achieve.
Most days.
Some days I wish I had something profound to write, and I could put pen to paper and let it flow. That it would make perfect sense when I was done and it be profound.
Some days.
Most days I wish I could travel the world - go to Greece. Visit NYC just once more. Touch it, just once more. Breath in the hot dog scented air and the steaming subway again. Most days I think about that trip to Tahiti I WILL take before I die. I will.
Most days.
Tonight...
I think about my life and how different it is than I ever thought it would be. How busy it is. How I have a son. A boy of my own who loves life and talks too much and sings like nobody's watching.
Tonight...
I look at my husband so proud of all he has done in this life. To see how he has changed and become a man of such honor. How he has become a father. How he has taken the path of his career into areas I honestly never thought he would. I thought, for many years, he would be a successful, suit-wearing business man living in a Penthouse on 5th Avenue. Suit-wearing he is. Penthouse, businessman-living he is not.
Tomorrow...
I will get up, pack my lunch, drive to work, send tracking information to clients I don't really care about and talk to salespeople who swoon over the daily cash report. I will go to a department meeting, workout at lunch, and visit with my girlfriends across the hall to my office who I've grown to love and mean so much to me.
Tomorrow...
I will not know what it will truly bring. If i'll ever accomplish any of those goals I wish for most days or the things I wish to be some days.
But I do know that tonight, I love. I love the life the Father has graciously given me. The family he's bestowed. The friends I'll visit tomorrow. And the relationship I have with Him.
Some days, most days, tonight, and tomorrow will always be what they are. But HE will be every day and for eternity, and He is all that is.
